Posts Tagged ‘‘adolescence’’
Taking on a new identity.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
Who am I really?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 15, 2011
This is a big enough question when you’re a teenager, not quite a child and not quite an adult, but it seems like an even bigger question when you’re dealing with a mental illness. I think if you have difficulties as you’re growing up, there’s a risk you can almost think of it as part [...]
A change of topic: Careers?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 21, 2010
A bit of a change from the BPD/CMHT ranting. On the menu today is careers: deciding on one, deciding on one that will please everyone else in your life & the most useless reason for suicidal ideation ever.. So it’s a somewhat well known fact that some with BPD (mentioned BPD!! damnit) have difficulty with their [...]
Thought vomit – BPD & me.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 14, 2010
I am so glad to have a place I can just dump all my thoughts again. I apologise in advance if it’s less-than-well-written, my mind is in a strange place tonight. My diagnosis of borderline personality disorder is somewhat haunting me at the moment. I have a very clear memory of being in A+E this [...]
On growing up mental.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 13, 2010
I have some catching up to do with this blog and others, evidently! So I returned to this blog (and the surprisingly awesome fact that I’d been nominated for TWIM awards!) feeling slightly apprehensive. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not sure where to begin or where to catch up. It’s hard to put [...]
A medley of topics.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
I could really use a wish right now.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 14, 2010
Listening to emotional classical music makes me think, so feel free to ignore what follows. (For people who really are that interested, I’m listening to Crystallized Beauty by Philip Sheppard.) First, I’d like to pose some questions. How would you feel if…. the person who was really nice to you, who you really got on [...]
A lot of questions.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 1, 2010
Why does my abuser have to be in touch? Why do I miss him? Why can’t I just shake off all this “mental health difficulties” stuff and just be normal? Why can’t I be happy? What is the matter with me?!?!?!
This is where a title should go.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 19, 2010
I can’t think of a title, so, there we go. Things are, well, how they are. Good and bad. The big “past” has been rearing its ugly head again, which means my conversations are pretty much limited to “I can’t cope with all of this” and “What should I study at university?”. Literally. That is [...]
Shiny Awards
