Posts Tagged ‘awesome ideas at first that turn a bit suckish in hindsight’
A little too happy at Christmas.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 29, 2010
Things were going brilliantly! I didn’t feel low at all, if anything, the absolute opposite! Life was fabulous, I’d finally gotten over this whole “mental illness” thing. BPD? Depression? Pish! I could do anything that I wanted to do. In fact, I wanted to go to university. No, not to study art or fashion… I [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Stop press: Mentalism makes a comeback.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 23, 2010
Warning – This post contains strong and possibly disturbing references to self injury. Please don’t get any ideas from me or read this while in a vulnerable state. Oh yes. I’m seriously beginning to think the depression is returning once again. And my mood had been relatively stable and brighter and therapy became positive and [...]
Hindsight.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2010
Is a wonderful, wonderful thing, with 20/20 vision. I’m a -6.00 so I’m blissfully near-blind. I cannot go anywhere on my own, I am followed upstairs and dropped subtle “hints” at any available opportunity. Not that my family are being mean, they gave me a good pep talk earlier which helped a bit. Just incase [...]
I’m not the smartest person out.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 5, 2010
Two overdoses in six months? A+E and CAMHS must be sick of the sight of me. I got discharged this afternoon after seeing the on-call psychiatrist, with a follow-up appointment next week. Apparently I’m “overdoing things and need to take a step back”. Apparently, sheer stubbornness, ignorance and excuses like “I’m just being a teenager!” [...]
Shiny Awards
