Posts Tagged ‘borderline personality disorder’
Change on the horizon?…
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 1, 2011
Hello lovely ones in the madosphere! I have been terribly neglectful of late with this blog. So I shall provide a muchly narcisstic bullet-pointed list of how I’ve been over the past few months. I entered a crisis house for several weeks, after uh… going mad again! The big, black, back-breaking boulder of depression hit [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
To the darkness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 9, 2011
So I know this blog is primarily about personality disorder & my experiences of it – this could well be related to it but the following post will mainly have triggers for eating disorders &… I don’t know what. It’s just not very nice things being talked about. At the moment, I am having real [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
Banned due to BPD.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 9, 2011
Dum dum dummm… No it’s not that exciting an update. In short, the reason that I’m not allowed to see a different psychiatrist or care co-ordinator (or have a second opinion, or seek therapy from a voluntary organization as I’m not allowed it on the NHS, or ask for help, or exist)… is because I [...]
Who am I really?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 15, 2011
This is a big enough question when you’re a teenager, not quite a child and not quite an adult, but it seems like an even bigger question when you’re dealing with a mental illness. I think if you have difficulties as you’re growing up, there’s a risk you can almost think of it as part [...]
A little too happy at Christmas.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 29, 2010
Things were going brilliantly! I didn’t feel low at all, if anything, the absolute opposite! Life was fabulous, I’d finally gotten over this whole “mental illness” thing. BPD? Depression? Pish! I could do anything that I wanted to do. In fact, I wanted to go to university. No, not to study art or fashion… I [...]
A change of topic: Careers?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 21, 2010
A bit of a change from the BPD/CMHT ranting. On the menu today is careers: deciding on one, deciding on one that will please everyone else in your life & the most useless reason for suicidal ideation ever.. So it’s a somewhat well known fact that some with BPD (mentioned BPD!! damnit) have difficulty with their [...]
Thought vomit – BPD & me.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 14, 2010
I am so glad to have a place I can just dump all my thoughts again. I apologise in advance if it’s less-than-well-written, my mind is in a strange place tonight. My diagnosis of borderline personality disorder is somewhat haunting me at the moment. I have a very clear memory of being in A+E this [...]
On growing up mental.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 13, 2010
I have some catching up to do with this blog and others, evidently! So I returned to this blog (and the surprisingly awesome fact that I’d been nominated for TWIM awards!) feeling slightly apprehensive. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not sure where to begin or where to catch up. It’s hard to put [...]
Shiny Awards
