Posts Tagged ‘camhs’
Taking on a new identity.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
It’s Kind of a Funny Story.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: February 19, 2012
If you haven’t watched this film… please do. I finished watching it last night (it was worth staying up until 3am for) and it gave me such a lovely warm feeling of happy afterward. At some points, it felt very raw because even though it’s a comedy-drama, it portrays that initial horror of psychiatric hospitalisation [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
On growing up mental.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 13, 2010
I have some catching up to do with this blog and others, evidently! So I returned to this blog (and the surprisingly awesome fact that I’d been nominated for TWIM awards!) feeling slightly apprehensive. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not sure where to begin or where to catch up. It’s hard to put [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
- 2 Comments
Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Tut.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 22, 2010
- In: Abuse | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Important "Life" Stuff
- 3 Comments
I should be sleeeeping. Although I’ve slept all day, apart from music tutoring and CAMHS, so I shouldn’t be surprised that I’m not tired. EastEnders are currently running a storyline focusing on the character Ronnie’s history of sexual abuse by her father. Not so great for my state of mind (see previous posts), but I [...]
I could really use a wish right now.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 14, 2010
Listening to emotional classical music makes me think, so feel free to ignore what follows. (For people who really are that interested, I’m listening to Crystallized Beauty by Philip Sheppard.) First, I’d like to pose some questions. How would you feel if…. the person who was really nice to you, who you really got on [...]
Stop press: Mentalism makes a comeback.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 23, 2010
Warning – This post contains strong and possibly disturbing references to self injury. Please don’t get any ideas from me or read this while in a vulnerable state. Oh yes. I’m seriously beginning to think the depression is returning once again. And my mood had been relatively stable and brighter and therapy became positive and [...]
Why?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 12, 2010
- In: CAMHS | Depression | Everything and nothing. | Friends | Growing up
- 2 Comments
Why is it that the skinny, bitchy girl gets all the friends and all the boys talking to her? Is it because she’s thin and pretty? Are people really that shallow? It’s not even that I want any attention from boys. Well. It would be nice to get more than a grunt or two words, sure. But [...]
Shiny Awards
