Posts Tagged ‘cmht’
Nothing of note to add.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 23, 2012
I guess I’m not been updating because I thought things were going well, but I have returned because they are not. Which means you get to put up with me, if you are reading. Sorry. The crisis team have been fantastic with me this time and not even putting the phone down when I start [...]
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
Diagnostic nonsense
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: October 26, 2011
Oh ICD, how much I loathe thee! Do we use ICD in UK or is DSM? Pretty sure it’s ICD? Hmm. I am somewhat hyper/manic/hypomanic/off-my-head. Usual routine of stopping antidepressant and “watching and waiting”, except now I have stuff to knock me out at night. Staying awake and perfectly coherent (for a manic person) until [...]
A smart move.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 4, 2011
ALL of the consultant psychiatrists in my area (a grand total of… 2?) have decided to go away at the same time. We poor mentalists can either arrive screaming & mildly psychotic at the double doors of the psychiatric hospital, be told to “distract yourself” (the goddamn spiders are distracting me enough) by the duty [...]
Change on the horizon?…
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 1, 2011
Hello lovely ones in the madosphere! I have been terribly neglectful of late with this blog. So I shall provide a muchly narcisstic bullet-pointed list of how I’ve been over the past few months. I entered a crisis house for several weeks, after uh… going mad again! The big, black, back-breaking boulder of depression hit [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
To the darkness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 9, 2011
So I know this blog is primarily about personality disorder & my experiences of it – this could well be related to it but the following post will mainly have triggers for eating disorders &… I don’t know what. It’s just not very nice things being talked about. At the moment, I am having real [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
Banned due to BPD.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 9, 2011
Dum dum dummm… No it’s not that exciting an update. In short, the reason that I’m not allowed to see a different psychiatrist or care co-ordinator (or have a second opinion, or seek therapy from a voluntary organization as I’m not allowed it on the NHS, or ask for help, or exist)… is because I [...]
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