Posts Tagged ‘crisis team/home treatment team’
Nothing of note to add.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 23, 2012
I guess I’m not been updating because I thought things were going well, but I have returned because they are not. Which means you get to put up with me, if you are reading. Sorry. The crisis team have been fantastic with me this time and not even putting the phone down when I start [...]
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Rage quit (discussion of self injury)
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: January 31, 2012
(…and other mental things) To put the title into context, “rage quit” is a kind of internet language speaking thing, oft-used when someone exits out of an online game they are losing, storming out of a chatroom or a DFE moment – “delete f…. everything”. Like facebook, etc. It is quite literally, quitting with rage. [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
A crisis.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: November 21, 2011
“Crisis team” sounds rather grandiose, doesn’t it? It sounds like a group of sweaty, burly, self-sacrificing embodiments of human kindness, responding to major natural disasters such as earthquakes and tsunamis, rebuilding homes and hand-feeding tiny children. Actually, a “crisis team” tells you to go for a walk and have a bath when you’ve decided to [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
Hmm.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 6, 2011
You know that feeling when you have a million words & thoughts in your head & you have no way of expressing them? For the past few days I’ve been wondering if my mood was going a little bit too high. I had an (understandable) drop in mood when I lost two friends in one [...]
A little too happy at Christmas.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 29, 2010
Things were going brilliantly! I didn’t feel low at all, if anything, the absolute opposite! Life was fabulous, I’d finally gotten over this whole “mental illness” thing. BPD? Depression? Pish! I could do anything that I wanted to do. In fact, I wanted to go to university. No, not to study art or fashion… I [...]
A change of topic: Careers?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 21, 2010
A bit of a change from the BPD/CMHT ranting. On the menu today is careers: deciding on one, deciding on one that will please everyone else in your life & the most useless reason for suicidal ideation ever.. So it’s a somewhat well known fact that some with BPD (mentioned BPD!! damnit) have difficulty with their [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Shiny Awards
