Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 31, 2010
I started a review of this year & then decided… no, I don’t really want to dwell on the negative things (of which, I realised, there are many!). Instead I shall offer an irritatingly positive & optomistic post about what I’ve acheived & what I hope to achieve for 2011. So far, I have.. …. [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 14, 2010
I am so glad to have a place I can just dump all my thoughts again. I apologise in advance if it’s less-than-well-written, my mind is in a strange place tonight. My diagnosis of borderline personality disorder is somewhat haunting me at the moment. I have a very clear memory of being in A+E this [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 13, 2010
I have some catching up to do with this blog and others, evidently! So I returned to this blog (and the surprisingly awesome fact that I’d been nominated for TWIM awards!) feeling slightly apprehensive. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not sure where to begin or where to catch up. It’s hard to put [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 19, 2010
I can’t think of a title, so, there we go. Things are, well, how they are. Good and bad. The big “past” has been rearing its ugly head again, which means my conversations are pretty much limited to “I can’t cope with all of this” and “What should I study at university?”. Literally. That is [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 14, 2010
You get what you need. That phrase, or something similar to it, is going through my head a lot recently. Hmm. Mood is somewhat stable, so I’m taking advantage of it by doing what I can and preparing for any other slip-ups. I’m more aware of the thoughts that lead up to me doing stuff [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 12, 2010
Why is it that the skinny, bitchy girl gets all the friends and all the boys talking to her? Is it because she’s thin and pretty? Are people really that shallow? It’s not even that I want any attention from boys. Well. It would be nice to get more than a grunt or two words, sure. But [...]
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 25, 2010
I don’t really have much to say. Saw the family support worker today and talked about money and care plans and work experience (she *thinks* she saw something about work placements with CAMHS for young people. Please please let her be right!) and stoof. Was meant to be going out tonight, but the weight gain has been [...]