Posts Tagged ‘inpatient’
Taking on a new identity.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
It’s Kind of a Funny Story.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: February 19, 2012
If you haven’t watched this film… please do. I finished watching it last night (it was worth staying up until 3am for) and it gave me such a lovely warm feeling of happy afterward. At some points, it felt very raw because even though it’s a comedy-drama, it portrays that initial horror of psychiatric hospitalisation [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Hindsight.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2010
Is a wonderful, wonderful thing, with 20/20 vision. I’m a -6.00 so I’m blissfully near-blind. I cannot go anywhere on my own, I am followed upstairs and dropped subtle “hints” at any available opportunity. Not that my family are being mean, they gave me a good pep talk earlier which helped a bit. Just incase [...]
Inpatient.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 8, 2010
I have about four hours of home leave left before I have to return to the unit, this is my second overnight stay. I don’t want to go back. I know psychiatric units are busy (especially quite secure/intense ones like the one I’m in) but I feel horribly lonely and like there’s no one to [...]
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