Posts Tagged ‘medication: lorazepam’
A smart move.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 4, 2011
ALL of the consultant psychiatrists in my area (a grand total of… 2?) have decided to go away at the same time. We poor mentalists can either arrive screaming & mildly psychotic at the double doors of the psychiatric hospital, be told to “distract yourself” (the goddamn spiders are distracting me enough) by the duty [...]
General updating.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: February 13, 2011
- In: CMHT | eating and me. | Everything and nothing. | Food | Hospital | Mental Illness | Recovery (?)
- 1 Comment
Hello lovely madosphere bloggers. I apologise for my sporadic updating. So much happens & there are so few words to express it properly/in an anonymous way! I had an appointment with my psychiatrist, which induced no little stress in me, but actually went really well. I’m keeping a diary of my mood swings to take [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
- 2 Comments
Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Paintwater
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 19, 2010
My feelings are like the jar of water you wash your paintbrushes in. Murky and cloudy and kind of sickening to look at and imagine taking in. I ended up ringing the crisis team Monday night anyway, after running out of the house and in the direction of the train station (and incidentally, a bridge and a [...]
Raw.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 26, 2010
I am raw. A child’s skinned knee, bleeding and shaking and sore to the touch. The pain is emotional, but it could kid you into thinking that it’s physical. There are screams in my head. No voices, just screams, why are people so obsessed with trying to get me labelled as having psychosis? “Are you [...]
Shiny Awards
