Posts Tagged ‘psychiatric hospital’
Taking on a new identity.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
It’s Kind of a Funny Story.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: February 19, 2012
If you haven’t watched this film… please do. I finished watching it last night (it was worth staying up until 3am for) and it gave me such a lovely warm feeling of happy afterward. At some points, it felt very raw because even though it’s a comedy-drama, it portrays that initial horror of psychiatric hospitalisation [...]
Borderline fail and becoming an “adult”.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2011
I am just one big ball of fail and drama teetering on the edge of the border line. Now that I’ve got the dramatic intro out of the way… I am feeling rather frustrated. I don’t quite know how the mental health services want you to work. If I don’t ring the crisis team tonight and [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
- 2 Comments
Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Tut.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 22, 2010
- In: Abuse | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Important "Life" Stuff
- 3 Comments
I should be sleeeeping. Although I’ve slept all day, apart from music tutoring and CAMHS, so I shouldn’t be surprised that I’m not tired. EastEnders are currently running a storyline focusing on the character Ronnie’s history of sexual abuse by her father. Not so great for my state of mind (see previous posts), but I [...]
A medley of topics.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
Hindsight.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 6, 2010
Is a wonderful, wonderful thing, with 20/20 vision. I’m a -6.00 so I’m blissfully near-blind. I cannot go anywhere on my own, I am followed upstairs and dropped subtle “hints” at any available opportunity. Not that my family are being mean, they gave me a good pep talk earlier which helped a bit. Just incase [...]
I’m not the smartest person out.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 5, 2010
Two overdoses in six months? A+E and CAMHS must be sick of the sight of me. I got discharged this afternoon after seeing the on-call psychiatrist, with a follow-up appointment next week. Apparently I’m “overdoing things and need to take a step back”. Apparently, sheer stubbornness, ignorance and excuses like “I’m just being a teenager!” [...]
Post-ironic artiness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 27, 2010
Che? How do I post-ironic artiness? Anyway. I am keeping busy, I’ve been out all day today. Tommorow is therapy today and Thursday, I have a review with my psychiatrist. Both should be interesting. I’ve tried using the alternative support routes that’ve been suggested but they’ve always got huge queues. Of 7 or more. With [...]
I’m discharged!
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 24, 2010
Wow. I have to, like, get up and washed and dressed and fed and function like a normal human being. Of my own accord. This feels really strange. Now all I need to do is keep myself out of hospital in the future, hold down college and a job (JOB! Knew there was something I [...]
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