Posts Tagged ‘psychological and emotional abuse’
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Rage quit (discussion of self injury)
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: January 31, 2012
(…and other mental things) To put the title into context, “rage quit” is a kind of internet language speaking thing, oft-used when someone exits out of an online game they are losing, storming out of a chatroom or a DFE moment – “delete f…. everything”. Like facebook, etc. It is quite literally, quitting with rage. [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Not a smart move.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 31, 2010
I called Childline about the whole issue with my “abuser” making threats. Foolishly told my mum that they have said they were concerned and wanted me to go to the police. Here’s the deal: I will never, ever go to the police about him. If he turned up, I would call 999 but otherwise, no. [...]
A medley of topics.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
I think I’ve broken my head.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 18, 2010
Lala ignore this post. Baleeted. Paranoia.
A lot of questions.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 1, 2010
Why does my abuser have to be in touch? Why do I miss him? Why can’t I just shake off all this “mental health difficulties” stuff and just be normal? Why can’t I be happy? What is the matter with me?!?!?!
I don’t have a lot to say.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 22, 2010
(so why post then? You absolute noo-noo.) Sorry I’ve not been commenting a lot recently. Just because I’m sure everybody is interested in the minute details of my life – I will now be studying performing arts come September and I’m resisting the urge to start screaming because of the flashbacks. Hopefully something of more [...]
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