Posts Tagged ‘ptsd’
Recovery of an unspecified nature.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 10, 2012
What, precisely, is recovery? Because this concept is starting to get my goat. The Mental Health Foundation describes it thus: What is recovery? For many people, the concept of recovery is about staying in control of their life despite experiencing a mental health problem. Professionals in the mental health sector often refer to the ‘recovery [...]
Things I learnt from self harm – Part 1
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 17, 2012
I thought I’d put together some ramblings about things that I learnt over the course of several years of injuring myself, mainly from cutting. This doesn’t sound like any experience you could learn from, especially when I’m only 18 and therefore not necessarily old enough to have “learnt” anything! However, on reflection, and after going [...]
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
Change on the horizon?…
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 1, 2011
Hello lovely ones in the madosphere! I have been terribly neglectful of late with this blog. So I shall provide a muchly narcisstic bullet-pointed list of how I’ve been over the past few months. I entered a crisis house for several weeks, after uh… going mad again! The big, black, back-breaking boulder of depression hit [...]
To the darkness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 9, 2011
So I know this blog is primarily about personality disorder & my experiences of it – this could well be related to it but the following post will mainly have triggers for eating disorders &… I don’t know what. It’s just not very nice things being talked about. At the moment, I am having real [...]
On growing up mental.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 13, 2010
I have some catching up to do with this blog and others, evidently! So I returned to this blog (and the surprisingly awesome fact that I’d been nominated for TWIM awards!) feeling slightly apprehensive. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not sure where to begin or where to catch up. It’s hard to put [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
? query insult?
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 30, 2010
I’ve tried typing out this entry multiple times, but I’m too ashamed. I’m too ashamed to write because of my disability. It is a fact. It will take years to reach some stability. I will need support for my mental health condition and for day to day life for a long time. My life feels [...]
A medley of topics.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
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