Posts Tagged ‘self injury’
Recovery of an unspecified nature.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 10, 2012
What, precisely, is recovery? Because this concept is starting to get my goat. The Mental Health Foundation describes it thus: What is recovery? For many people, the concept of recovery is about staying in control of their life despite experiencing a mental health problem. Professionals in the mental health sector often refer to the ‘recovery [...]
Nothing of note to add.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 23, 2012
I guess I’m not been updating because I thought things were going well, but I have returned because they are not. Which means you get to put up with me, if you are reading. Sorry. The crisis team have been fantastic with me this time and not even putting the phone down when I start [...]
Things I learnt from self harm – Part 1
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 17, 2012
I thought I’d put together some ramblings about things that I learnt over the course of several years of injuring myself, mainly from cutting. This doesn’t sound like any experience you could learn from, especially when I’m only 18 and therefore not necessarily old enough to have “learnt” anything! However, on reflection, and after going [...]
Rage quit (discussion of self injury)
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: January 31, 2012
(…and other mental things) To put the title into context, “rage quit” is a kind of internet language speaking thing, oft-used when someone exits out of an online game they are losing, storming out of a chatroom or a DFE moment – “delete f…. everything”. Like facebook, etc. It is quite literally, quitting with rage. [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
A mess.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: November 16, 2011
Not sure how to fix this mess. All I do is drink, purge, cut, exercise, starve, sleep. Rinse and repeat. I don’t want to go into hospital or into a crisis centre or whatever because I’m scared of males at the moment but I can’t tell my care team that. Being in a mixed-gender environment [...]
Swingy swing.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: November 2, 2011
I can’t answer my phone. I can’t think of responses when people talk to me. I can’t sleep at night but I can’t stay awake during the day. I can’t find a reason of why I feel so bad, except for the fact I’m alive. I’m angry. I’m irritable. I have no emotion. I have [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Stop press: Mentalism makes a comeback.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: June 23, 2010
Warning – This post contains strong and possibly disturbing references to self injury. Please don’t get any ideas from me or read this while in a vulnerable state. Oh yes. I’m seriously beginning to think the depression is returning once again. And my mood had been relatively stable and brighter and therapy became positive and [...]
Losing it.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 17, 2010
(and no, this is not a reference to my virginity..) As my past… two… three… posts have described, I’m really struggling at the moment. So today I tried to do the responsible thing and phone my psychiatrist first thing. I’ve left four messages with the receptionist now, everytime saying that they’ll get her to ring [...]
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