Posts Tagged ‘sexual abuse’
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
To the darkness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 9, 2011
So I know this blog is primarily about personality disorder & my experiences of it – this could well be related to it but the following post will mainly have triggers for eating disorders &… I don’t know what. It’s just not very nice things being talked about. At the moment, I am having real [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
- 2 Comments
Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Not a smart move.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 31, 2010
I called Childline about the whole issue with my “abuser” making threats. Foolishly told my mum that they have said they were concerned and wanted me to go to the police. Here’s the deal: I will never, ever go to the police about him. If he turned up, I would call 999 but otherwise, no. [...]
Tut.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 22, 2010
- In: Abuse | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Important "Life" Stuff
- 3 Comments
I should be sleeeeping. Although I’ve slept all day, apart from music tutoring and CAMHS, so I shouldn’t be surprised that I’m not tired. EastEnders are currently running a storyline focusing on the character Ronnie’s history of sexual abuse by her father. Not so great for my state of mind (see previous posts), but I [...]
A medley of topics.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 20, 2010
A friend from the psychiatric hospital I was in called me earlier – it was so weird to hear somebody say the name of the hospital and ward. They’re doing okay and going to be discharged soon. Some of them have been in there two years or more. I guess I got off lucky, being [...]
I think I’ve broken my head.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 18, 2010
Lala ignore this post. Baleeted. Paranoia.
A lot of questions.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 1, 2010
Why does my abuser have to be in touch? Why do I miss him? Why can’t I just shake off all this “mental health difficulties” stuff and just be normal? Why can’t I be happy? What is the matter with me?!?!?!
Shiny Awards
