Posts Tagged ‘“trauma”’
Taking on a new identity.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 24, 2012
Hopefully this won’t be offensive to anyone, in general, with its topic matter. Warning for discussions of self harm, eating distress and general madness. *** I think when one is first diagnosed with a mental health problem, or first realise it, or whatever… it can become strongly entrenched in your identity. Even others, actually especially others will [...]
Recovery of an unspecified nature.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 10, 2012
What, precisely, is recovery? Because this concept is starting to get my goat. The Mental Health Foundation describes it thus: What is recovery? For many people, the concept of recovery is about staying in control of their life despite experiencing a mental health problem. Professionals in the mental health sector often refer to the ‘recovery [...]
Things I learnt from self harm – Part 1
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 17, 2012
I thought I’d put together some ramblings about things that I learnt over the course of several years of injuring myself, mainly from cutting. This doesn’t sound like any experience you could learn from, especially when I’m only 18 and therefore not necessarily old enough to have “learnt” anything! However, on reflection, and after going [...]
Psychological breakthrough.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: March 9, 2012
I think this is the nicer mental-health-services term for “immense psychological collapse”. Whichever it is, I feel like I’m going through one of them. The dissociative-type thing has come back in full force. I’m losing large chunks of the day with no recognizable trigger for it. I’ve been trying to employ the usual defences that are suggested by [...]
Discharge and an incoherent rant.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: December 4, 2011
Possible triggers for self harm, substance abuse, eating disorders and generally not very nice thoughts. I have been released into the community, armed with benzodiazepines and not incredibly further forward than when I went in. My first night in my own bed involved DVDs, rum and a very poor excuse for a wound dressing. [...]
Change on the horizon?…
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: September 1, 2011
Hello lovely ones in the madosphere! I have been terribly neglectful of late with this blog. So I shall provide a muchly narcisstic bullet-pointed list of how I’ve been over the past few months. I entered a crisis house for several weeks, after uh… going mad again! The big, black, back-breaking boulder of depression hit [...]
To the darkness.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: May 9, 2011
So I know this blog is primarily about personality disorder & my experiences of it – this could well be related to it but the following post will mainly have triggers for eating disorders &… I don’t know what. It’s just not very nice things being talked about. At the moment, I am having real [...]
outwardly vs the “system” – the first stage.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: April 25, 2011
My tutor would be proud I am using my English skills… maybe not in the way I’m having to now, though! After several phonecalls and messages to the local NHS Complaints Service, I got in touch with someone and relayed my initial concerns. I recieved a letter a few days later explaining my options – [...]
Five little monkeys, jumping on the bed.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: August 8, 2010
- In: Abuse | borderline personality disorder | CAMHS | Depression | Hospital | Mental Illness | Self harm
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Things weren’t great, but I was safe to an extent. I’ve started self harming again, after almost 8 months free, which is bad but. I was getting out and doing stuff and trying to struggle on. One fell off and banged his head. The full punch-in-the-balls realisation about my past experiences has hit me. Hard. [...]
Not a smart move.
Posted by: outwardlyintrovert on: July 31, 2010
I called Childline about the whole issue with my “abuser” making threats. Foolishly told my mum that they have said they were concerned and wanted me to go to the police. Here’s the deal: I will never, ever go to the police about him. If he turned up, I would call 999 but otherwise, no. [...]
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