Living life on the borderline


Posted on: March 8, 2010

I have about four hours of home leave left before I have to return to the unit, this is my second overnight stay. I don’t want to go back. I know psychiatric units are busy (especially quite secure/intense ones like the one I’m in) but I feel horribly lonely and like there’s no one to talk to. It’s weird but I really miss my CAMHS team. I guess I’m fortunate in the sense that my psychiatrist and psychologist are lovely (and understand my self-deprecating sense of humour!). It’ll be good to see them at my CPA meeting later this week.

I suppose I should give a bit of a background story for anyone reading this. I’m a 16 year old soon-to-be college student, current diagnoses of the month are major depression and PTSD, which may or may not change, depending on what happens at the meeting. Earlier this year, I hit a really low point and attempted suicide. Then I got admitted to hospital, which I’m still in now and isn’t really helping much at all. I’m still impulsive, I’m still low and still in a love/hate relationship with food.

And that’s me in a nutshell, really.

I really don’t have anything interesting to say. I do NOT want to go back to the unit. That’s about really the essence of this blog post.


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I'm an 18 year old girl/woman/person of the female gender who blogs about growing up, living with mental health problems and her experience with the NHS mental health services, both CAMHS and CMHTs. Expect plenty of teenage angst and general craziness. Nothing out of the ordinary here.

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