Living life on the borderline

The sting.

Posted on: April 25, 2010

There was a wasp in the bathroom (no idea where they’re coming from??) me, being absolutely full of it, tried to pick it up in a tissue and throw it down the loo. Me, being absolutely full of it, got stung. Screamed, took a piriton, screamed some more, started rapidly swelling. Now I’m sat with a cup of tea feeling sorry for myself.

Home is… well, home is home. I can’t even go there with talking about it, I just can’t. I don’t have therapy until Wednesday, things are too hectic to find a quiet moment to call Samaritans, people are in too much of a state to try and talk to them.

I’m just sat here with this stupid grin fixed on my face that’s as fake as Jordan’s boobs and not even trying to hide the fact that it is so.

Until now, mood has been relatively stable. I found out today that a friend of mine has manic depression. We were discussing meds and their effects and unstable moods and etc. The thing is, “normal” Chelsea would’ve reacted to this a lot… stronger than I am now. I’m just being blank and nothing with a stupid grin, which means it’s being actively internalised and going to explode in the near future.

Sorry for my blog posts not being very positive recently.

Interview tommorow for placement in a special needs school. Woo.


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I'm an 18 year old girl/woman/person of the female gender who blogs about growing up, living with mental health problems and her experience with the NHS mental health services, both CAMHS and CMHTs. Expect plenty of teenage angst and general craziness. Nothing out of the ordinary here.

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