Living life on the borderline

I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

Posted on: May 28, 2010

I am too fat for an eating disorder. I actually need to lose the weight.

I seriously don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

Well, my psychiatrist said that you can have an eating disorder at any weight, but the point still stands. I am not bulimic. I am not ill. I think I’m fat because I am. I am genuinely fat. I am not crazy. What I’m doing and eating and thinking is normal.

I actually don’t know what to think or do. I. Just don’t.

I did have other news but this is taking priority at the moment.


2 Responses to "I don’t know whether to laugh or cry."

Your psychiatrist is right. You do not necessarilly have to be underweight to have an ED. If you are engaging in bulimic behaviours or restricting, then yes, you coud have an eating disorder and it is an issue that you need to work on. I’m not sure whether you are overweight or you just see yourself that way, but regardless, you still deserve to be free of the self hate and any ED behaviours which you might have.
Take care,

Thanks for the comment. My psychiatrist agrees I need to lose weight, which has kind of reinforced all the negative thoughts I’m having. Thanks for taking the time to comment, though.

outwardly x

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I'm an 18 year old girl/woman/person of the female gender who blogs about growing up, living with mental health problems and her experience with the NHS mental health services, both CAMHS and CMHTs. Expect plenty of teenage angst and general craziness. Nothing out of the ordinary here.

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